sexynaughtybitchy

2010-02-06T23:53:00.002+08:00

too many things happening in too short a time.

i need space to breathe, settle and refocus my life.

things are misleading me.

the bf has been so sweet lately, whereas, ive been so not bothered.

i guess, it just cause i was too patient,

but he is was, will be the best i ever had. and i hope.

no one, i mean no one will do just as much as he did, although in the smallest ways, for me.

for us.

i know now,

how much i mean and am to him,

cause he doesnt say it often enough.

but it means something, so much.

god only knows why i do this.

its been a month, and slightly longer,

cause we also havent been seeing each other much.

might not be for the next few months as well, with school.

to do.

loan - obtained.

fees- to pay.

work- be less playful and talkative and be more productive and skillful and knowledgable.

friends- meet more.

bf- :) special.

family- spend more time.and have more fun.

money- save

life- REFOCUS.

i need an intervention.

2010-01-19T14:32:00.002+08:00

i havent been the most healthy and well person for the last month of so.

now with swollen lymph nodes, intermitten headaches, constant flu and sore throat.

i have been deligently taking my vitamins, ginseng and herbal tabs.

1.2.3.

tired.

2010-01-08T20:00:00.002+08:00

Sometimes when all seems to have gone wrong, or so we'd like to think, its so easy to presume that while our own world has ground to an absolute halt.

But We fail to realise the trash collector has taken our garbage and left the cans int eh road, juts like always. Theres a bill fom thw oil truck into the front door. Neatly Stacked on the counter is a week's worth of mail.

Amazingly, life has to go on.

So friends, in one way or another we may be struggling or hurting.

But remember there is someone else out there struggling and feeling way worst.

So put on a smile and Move along. :)

Help shall come your way.

thought of the day.

2010-01-07T16:53:00.002+08:00

Happy 2010 Everyone.!

time flies.

faster then u think and imagine.

many things to come with new beginnings, final biddings to some.

a year older and wiser we hope.

many things to accomplish.

many things to save and achieve.

many plans to fulfil

many targets and aims to reach.

all comes with good planning, a lil suffering and hardwork and i will see my reaps in time.

1. 3 years anniversary

2. go on a holiday with the boy

3.go to auzzie

4. finish yr 1 of my degree well.

5. be MC free from today onwards.

6. be a filial daughter, sister, gf.

7. pray hard.

8. play hard.

9. save more

10. pay for my studies as fast as possible.

11. have time for my friends.

12.maintain a clean room

13. be thrifty.

list could go on.

oh well, christmas was utterly well spent, with family and friends. with lots of love and food.

love what the cousins share,

its a sad thing we arent together in the same country 247.

hope this year is a better more fruitful , more meaningful one.!

LOVEEE

2009-12-14T01:09:00.002+08:00

this year christmas is a lil different in my house.

spring cleaning, done early, to every nook and corner, with giving away lotsa things we don't need and use.

the home, feeels cleaner and neater.

much new things we've got to add on and brighten the spirits.

new tree,

new deco,

new clothes.

i want to find more hope.

more love

more peace and more joy.

i want to be more prayerful.

i know im giving, this christmas.

PEACE.

yuor happiness is my satisfaction.

2009-12-07T05:18:00.003+08:00

been sucha long time since i've been in here to say something.

things were bad. BAD.

i guess, its hope that carries you through, esp at times when all you

want to do is give up.

things happen for a reason,

a good cause.

being hopeful, feeling empty and tired all led to an ending of happiness.

i'd do all it takes, to make the ones i love smile and be happy.

1. i made my parents both go for a massage under my package.

2. money isn't everything, all i know is if i were to die tmr, i know i made you happy this birthday with all i had to give.

people change,times change.

changes have been progressively good and motivating to me and life in general.

at the end of the fight with my mum, my aim was achieved,

so was hers, all it took was some pain and heartache. for a while that is.

spring cleaning for christmas this year came early, and really very wholistic.

i'm feel such good sense of satisfaction.

im happy.

happy bday babylove.

you are most definitely my one and only.

and through this we'll get through and be happy.

cause we know we can. and we will.we're on the way. :))

2009-11-20T17:40:00.002+08:00

class 95 really enlightened me last night.

it truely got me thinking

how insecure i feel.

i am becoming someone i didn't used to be.

this isnt really me.

but things and people change.

i know this is only temp.

i see a better december.

work has been better

students are really nice and excited to learn.

colleagues are fun.

except for those minorities whom the world knows about.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUD,

loveee.

2009-11-11T00:50:00.002+08:00

woohooo

my big day is tmr.

being on leave is like being in heaven and having to spend lots of money.

busy spending all precious time.

the enjoyment and party and chillouts and fun is endless.

if only life was really a bed of roses like these..

ooh well.

with lots happening and stressing me out at work.

so here's the deal.

PRE, ACTUAL, POST (long long one)

starting off with pre

sunday night's chillout was relaxing and nice after fr mike's bday dinner in church

monday was massage, mani and pedicures.. with a late night chillout with the girls

and anther with thee boy.

tuesday bring my sister to hairdressers for her hair cut,

lunch with scott, bank, waxing and threading, dosa with angie, shopping for party stuff which was ultimate fun, window shopping and clothes shopping and more shoppping.

wednesday meet the girls at hougang mall, get some stuff,

artsy fartsy time at my house, dinner, the countdown clubbing and sexy black and white night.

actual

with all the loves and family.

have thee boy over, cutting my yearly strawberry cheese cake. since my first birthday

chillout have fun hangout maybe.

ending off with the post

thats long and big big big.

friday pack pack pack, to the chalet off we go,

(pre)night with all the loves and family.deco and drinking, stayovers

saturday- the day! deco, r and r, getting ready like real bimbos..

from family, to church friends, to colleagues, to loves, school friends, and many many more..

with my fav dress from mango

an endless night with party till morning!

sunday off we go.

monday- recupperate.

tuesday- back to work.

oooh what a deal!

2009-10-22T19:26:00.001+08:00

MC for 2 days and 1 day off is over..

enough resting and all that.

back to work.

been really boring the last few days other than meeting the MC king..

yay work work work.

night shift next thursday friday and saturday

and soon i'll be on leave..

and 20 days more til my birthdayy..!

how exciting..

losing weight wasnt that much of an easy task,

maintaining it is much harder..

i'm not getting fatter.

FEEEEL like shopping and getting out.

SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP.

asss

2009-10-20T23:31:00.002+08:00

MC for 2 days after much thought and procrastination..

feeel bad to take the MC but i needed it.

sick and as well as a break.

im really tired out.

the goood news is,

yes i have my sweetheart till the 17 of Nov.

extention of MC for him..

happiness..

BIRTHDAY

invitations are out,

ordering the food and cake tmr.

deco- still onsidering, maybe i'd get the girls to do it with me the night before..

music- ooh well, i have to start compiling CDs, from dad and myself to play.

no big Dj and all,

Photos- hopefully help from tim and our own cameras.

my prettty dress, i cant wait to wear it.

fucking gorgeous and sexy i swear.

till date there is 22 days left.

still finding it hard to adapt to the fact that im turning 21.

kid no more.

LIFE

I've been a happier person these days,

i think the a__y is the damn thing that ruins my days.

work is well and fine.

depressing but coping,

its all good when u look forward to it.. when u have nie friends and people to work with and have fun and face th challenges with.

i brought the family out for lunch quite randomly AND brought them to catch my sister's keeper

yes i watched it twice this weekend. but that wasn't enough.

even my kid sister teared. and said she wanted to cherish and stop fighting with me cause

tts our daily routine lately.

not to mention my mother only stopped crying at certain parts of the movie.

my brother said its a emo movie that got him thinking more.

my dad said it was a good movie and confirmants should watch this kinda movies.

it was all in all a good sunday.

that i ended with pow seng's tofu and grocery shopping with mum.

i feel like a tourist in the fmily. cause i dont get to be with them on most weekends.

LOVE.

the boy has been good.

changed.

i'm hoping its permanant.

i know no one's perfect.

im not expecting him to be.

but he's better off now then he was 31 months ago.

with choices and decisions he has made.

the life he has been through.

sweet and everything nice.

occassional hiccups here and there which can be overlooked cause of the good times and things.

im realy proud of this one.

i was singing : the best i ever had my drake to someone. though it wasnt to the right person.

but this is one really nice meaningful song.

current fav.

2009-10-17T15:59:00.002+08:00

HappyDeepavali fellow friends.

Birthday

my birthday is in less then a month.

i'm feeeling the hype and excitement.

i know its not gonna be the same but i'm not gonna let that dampen my spirits

cause its my 21st.

the one and only day you wait for so patiently for 364 days, so

im completely elated.

parts are fitting in one by one.

invites are more or less done and waiting to be sent/given out.

i bought my dress. awesome buy despite the prize.

my baby said it looks really sexy and gorgeous.

Cancer

i lost 3 patients in just a span of 2 days

the nicer patients.

the first time i actually felt my heart drop and teared.

Its hard for us, its harder for their loved ones.

my sister's keeper- i finally realised its showing and i caught it the same day

with the girls and had supper with them. its been a while anyway.

nice night out.

cancer is somehow making me realise alot more things in life.

its making me a lil worried and fearful.

i pray each and everyday for the health of the people around me.

i may be biased but im really nice to this one patient.

but she deserves my nice-ness.

Nails

long

nice

pedi-ed

mani-ed

REDD.

HAPPINESS

LOVE

we've been having it good with the dear boy on MC

i hope it stays this way post MC

me being less grumpy,

more understanding, deep breathing had come a long way.

we've plans

for the next year,

for a few years in fact.

hope it all goes well

more importantly according to god's plan..

FAMILY

some sad things happend oveer the weeek.

un expected and shocking.

i guess people make mistakes and learn from them.

hope the rest goes well from there...

they love, help, support, motivate and understand like no one else.

LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE

2009-10-12T23:29:00.003+08:00

so, he was a lil upset when i told him but it subsided.

it wasnt abt the thing itself but instead not telling him.

now i know it wouldnt upset him so i can just tell him if im taking it.

my bday is only a month away,

place is settled,

foood is more of less settled

cake settled

the worry is the invitation card, the unfinished guest list,

rsvp, deco, photographer, more chairs, music.

have decided to call the girls and perhaps the papa-son and emily too.

meeting the boy almost everyday and making the best of his MC.

it feeels so good to be able to see him and spend time with him like this.

i only could wish this never ends.

but it would when MC ends.

all the best boyy.

so with all the complains and whyning, i guess the improvement

is not as negligible.

right now

my focus is on,

working

saving for school next yr and ausssie in nov next yr.

our cruise/ mini holidayy with the boy after ORD.

being happy

fighting less

maintaining and perhaps losing a bt more if people dont kill me,

preparing and having a blessed and meaningful christmas this year with my family and loved ones.

plan for the new year.

love love peoople.

2009-10-10T16:01:00.002+08:00

its finally come to an end.

now whats sad is,

i'm gonna miss the girls and cracking our heads over dresses,

practices, steps and yadada.

we wont see each other as much..

the good thing is,

we finally get more time to ourselves and do not have to do as many morning shifts

we do not have to see certain people.

it'll be a new journey from here for everyone of us based on what we learned and bring back with us to grace us through life,

to me,

the catwalk, walking like a lady should.

speaking, unlike a true blue singaporean.
upholding our profession and living a good and healthy life.

we have more opportunities to go for course with our papa-son Gary

who will def be missed by us. esp me having to be contestant no.1 and catwalking hand in hand with him and him dreaming of us at night.

winning the consolation to me meant,

the pay off of all our hard work and efforts and best of all the priceless and more meaningful thing this pagent has made us learn.

i am glad i made it this far although i personally never wanted to be part of it and went for auditions so half heartedly

i knew weihsin the sweeet one would win, but not sure what.

dina, i knew would be romantic, with that elegant walk and sweet face and voice.

cheryl 1st runner up really did her best and pulled through well, being very sweet and humble through it all.

nisa- who danced and cat walked soooo damn well.

keeep it up girls.

meet soon.

mani, pedi-s, fish spa, starbucks breakfasts..

well enjoyed and something i would remember all my life.

photos all on FB. videos will be uploaded soon.

all in all, im glad i made my parents proud of me from my Q and A.

and my sweeetheart to be at the dinner and dance, videoing tKING photos

even with the shoulder in such pain and agony,

i love u all my loves.

no more endless morning shifts.

2009-10-06T00:09:00.002+08:00

if you were mine,

everytime,

you could be the one to make me feel alright

day or night.

i am sleep deprived.

i am anxious plus plus for friday.

i hope all goes fine, and we remember our stuff and everyone has fun

diet diet diet

thank god my face it better,.

flatten a bit more.

lose it a bit more.

craze lesss.

stilll SOB-ing.

giddiness is less.

with all i have i give to you the one i live for.

2009-10-05T00:38:00.001+08:00

i hope this rainbow shines forever.

and out of the blue i got the sweetest words from him ever.

not i love and and all the usuals.

but im keeping it from here.

it kept my heart jumping for quite a well.

i miss the boy who i did dressing on the shoulder for.

2009-10-03T19:02:00.002+08:00

giddy spells and SOB++ for the last two days have been keeping me home and in bed.

i need to get well.

on the other hand i want to watch FAME,

phobia 2 and a few other movies.

can't wait for this friday.

the day.

communication i realised is so important,

i think we all lack it.

esp with computers and handphones as distractions,

poeple communicate less physically and verbally.

we had a reallly lonng and sub normal conversation yesterday

im glad i know where we're going wrong and im glad to see changes.

i guess thingsa hve changed becasue of our work and life schedules.

there has to be more give and take,

more and more.

prioritise.

mark is gone.

i hope he'll be safe.

and protected.

can't wait for him to be back

def gonna miss him.

dear lord,

i pray for health and safety for all the ones so dear and close to me.

i pray for those who walked the wrong path

that they be guided back to you and your liight.

give us strength to face each new day

the courage to face the trials and temptations,

the love we need to brighten the ones low and down around us.

help me be like you.

thank you for all the people and things u've placed in my life

both good and bad.

amen.

2009-10-01T23:27:00.003+08:00

its good and its bad,

so many things.

4 nights done,

4 days off.

the big thing is next week,

its too soon.

people leaving, people suffering, peoplee dying,

keeping up with everyone else,

pleasing everyone,

meeeting and maintaing expectations,

changes, changes changes.

Be Positive.

Be Happy.

these try to keep me going.

i need to set freee many things in my head,

and let lose, the correct and meaningful way.

one more month to my birthday

Save !

2009-09-23T17:50:00.002+08:00

" grandma, grandma, "

she's slippin away slowly..

i wont be able to see her go.

for the times she put a smile on my face when i sponged her, we disturbed and tickled her

for all you've done and what a great person you are.

waking up for 5 mornings is tough stuff,

but coping well.

pimples, stay away!

for now at least.

its coming to an end,

one month.

i hope my willpower and endurance will stay with me through..

people, people,

everyone's changing and life won't be the same.

i just wanna cherish my moments and loved ones.

those that are here always,

those that walk in and out,

those who are out.

* sadness is a good thing,

we gain something at the end of it.

closeness, more care and concern

happiness, satisfaction, list goes on.

where there's sadness, ever joy!

2009-09-19T12:39:00.007+08:00

where there is injury, your pardon.

its been so long since i attended a mass wholeheartedly.

it was really good.

really wanna go today too but ooh well, sacrifices just to spend time with him.

not that i dont want to but

suituations suituations.

i pray and hope and do all i can for my face to get better

fucking surgical masks ruined my face.

not gnna wear it even if i get caught.

get better get better get better get better

dance- we've finished the song,

practice practice practice.

its real fun but challenging.

gown- yet to go for the 2nd fitting.

nth is confirmed yet.

people people

1. hope things get better

2. i'm so happy that once again its normal, you'll always be.

(though i thought it would never be)

3. waiting. cause i miss ya, really really need ya.

(im being open and just hope its gonna be like it used to.)

4. you can do it, just chose the right path

be with the right people. prioritise everything.

it'll be just fine.

gonna miss this one.

5. study study study damnit.

i can't be there any longer.

6. stay. strive on,

you truely are a shoulder.

7. i miss you girls.

to the different 6 people.

2009-09-16T23:28:00.002+08:00

off+ dance

training

off

finally a rest and a break.

i hope things go as planned.

funds are sufficient and equally/wisely used and saved.

i've plans.

seeing them slip away isnt easy,

when u really care and treat them like your very own.

but they're better off where they are now,

no more pain

no more suffering

no more burden.

thanks for the strength to carry on

and the courage to be strong.

to 3 different but significant people.

1.and i won't let you go.

2.friends are friends forever ,there are lots and lots of them and a friend will not say never cause the welcome will not end. tho its time to let you go in the father's hands we know that a lifetime's not to long to live as FRIENDS.

3. random thoughts, dreams of the future, as sweet as you are.

its a difficult choice now.

time can tell.

So I put my hands up

They’re playing my song

,And the butterflys fly away

Noddin’ my head like yea

Movin my hips like yea

I got my hands up,

They’re playin my song

I know im gonna be ok

Yea,

It's a party in the USA

Yea,

It's a party in the USA

2009-09-09T22:29:00.000+08:00

here i am with hope for a new day tomorrow that things get better.

dance tmr, i need strength and confidence.
i hope i cope.

IT isnt working or helping much any more.
lose lose lose!

flashing lights

2009-09-04T21:34:00.002+08:00

feels good to be able to do this once in a while.

clean simple, expensive fun.

thankss jesserr,

it put a smile not only to our faces, but my mothers too.

heart warming.

can't wait for time to pass.

FANTATISCO.

2009-09-04T14:54:00.000+08:00

this part of the song,
i'd dedicate to you.
i miss you.

Packing up the dreams God planted
In the fertile soil of you
Cant believe the hopes hes granted
Means a chapter in your life is through
But well keep you close as always
It wont even seem youve gone
cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

And friends are friends forever
If the lords the lord of them
And a friend will not say never
cause the welcome will not end
Though its hard to let you go
In the fathers hands we know
That a lifetimes not too long to live as friends.

i need strength and confidence.
i pray it goes fine.

weekends here,
my weekends are extra special.

2009-09-03T21:34:00.000+08:00

who would have known?

i'm glad certain things are juts the way they are now,
like all things happen for a reason.

met with nurul,
shopped, ate, talked, shopped.

met the girls and marko(one of us girls)
fun time we had,
hope whatever happened, closes a certain door.
saw friends from allll over,
rekindled old friendships,
made a few more enemies.
drink, danced, had fun.
FUN.

shooot for the paegent was really long.
oh well, one month.
9 october.
i'll just have fun.
to me its not the final prize we get,but the lessons we learn through this experience.
once in a lifetime.

GOD bless you, touch you and open your eyes i pray..
wake up, friend.

the weekend is approaching with me working afternooon on both saturday and sunday.
hopefully, i get my time with u on sat night.
i'd do anything.

Be safe.
I miss the
NYP babes,
the girls,
her,
him,
them,
them.

LOVEEEEE.

2009-08-31T23:54:00.000+08:00

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute, it's love
And, suddenly, it's like a battlefield

One word turns into a
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you're gone
I'm out here without a shield - can't go back, now

Both hands tied behind my back for nothing, oh, no
These times when we climb so fast to fall, again
Why we gotta fall for it, now...

I never meant to start a war
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like

Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag,
If we can't surrender
Then, we're both gonna what we have, oh, no

Both hands tied behind my back for nothing (nothing), oh, no
These times when we climb so fast to fall, again
I don't wanna fall for it, now...

We could pretend that we are friends, tonight (oh)
And, in the morning, we wake up, and we'd be alright
'Cause, baby, we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
I guess you better go and get your armor...

I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for...

its only one or two things that lack to make this life and relationships perfect.
i guess some things are just meant to be, cause no one, no relationship is perfect.
i still enjoy work. and the reaps of it.
im really glad for a family like this,
and im thankful, for someone so special like my babybunch.
make the best of life, it comes only once.
and make no regrets.

LOVEEE

i misss my babybunch.
HAPPY september.

2009-08-28T01:53:00.002+08:00

i miss my greeenie,
i hope you're fine.
i hope its all a dream.
snap back t reality.

its all wrong.
before its too late.
or is it aleady.?

have i mentioned? i love nights.
its so fun.
i love work.
i may not like, one or two but i sure love what i do for who i do.
its been some time since i packed, but was sad to see her go and slip away.
rip, _______.
and i hope he suffers less, either go, or get better mr nice.

enjoy life, do what it takes.
treasure it.

LOVEEE

lum sum

2009-08-13T18:32:00.000+08:00

remember me.

clubbing with the girls and markky at arena last night was a blast.
with 360+ photos.

i misss my bf.

There must be no competition among you, no conceit; but everybody is to be self effacing.
Always consider the other person to be better than yourself, so that nobody thinks of his own interests first but everybody thinks of other people's interests instead.

i think the world really lacks this and the world could be a better place if this happened.

great midweek guys.
enjoy it as much as i did. ((:

LOVE
xoxox

2009-08-09T03:33:00.001+08:00

happpy national dayyy, nation!

2009-07-31T14:37:00.000+08:00

It was a game we all played as a child
Then some of us made it a dream worthwhile
More to learn, not as much time to share
Because in our hearts we really cared

We have worked the late night hours
While others slept away
Handles a doctor's many moods
Then found time to pray

Critical moments that remain as memories
Some sad - then some are good
Then there are the tragedies
That will never be understood

We see a newborn baby smile
As we watch another slip away
And that completes the circle
The price for life's that paid

Sometimes not appreciated
When just a hug will do
We are proud of our profession
A gift from me to you

HAPPY NURSES' DAY!

2009-07-29T16:57:00.000+08:00

Now we learn the true meaning of friendships
when you try to ignore the PAST
and give it a second chance
but it turns out this way.
Sure couldnt get worst.

Things will never be the same again,
as good as once fgood friend dead.
Unbelieveable and really sad way to end.
So much for WE'LL ALWAYS BE.

I'm guessing, if someone does something wrong
this is no way of condoning the acts,
Moreover, you'd be capable of joining in
the act, just like the other victims.

Oh what the Fuck is wrong with you,
Get your act/life together.
Fucking disappointment.
Wench!
Stupid Fuckheads.

2009-07-17T09:57:00.002+08:00

yet another one gone,

at least she doesnt need to suffer any more 2 weeks of suffering and not eating,

been seeing her the last 28 months or even more of my life.

just saw her yesterday,now she's gone.

innocent, lovable, sweet little girl.

johny's dog.

love you sahara.

10 years old.

r.i.p.

all this is too much for just a week

while im off.

i hope he has the strength to carry on.

2009-07-16T22:22:00.002+08:00

i lost a friend.

i ccant believe it,

it feels surreal.

be safe when u ride and drive friends.

came out in new paper today

really sad to see a friend on the new papers this way.

rest in peace panjang.

miss you

god bless.

2009-07-03T21:28:00.002+08:00

i learn a new meaning to life everyday.

with the different people i meet, both sick and healthy.

i wish i could help them and give them all they want,

make it all better for them and their families.

all i hope and pray for each day

is for the people around me who i love so dearly

to treasure what they have,

have a healthy life,

be as happy as they can,

live life like today was their last.

i pray for the best of you* and your* family.

i hate to see her suffer.

anyhow,

training today

morning tmr,

off on sunday and monday

and training and dinner with the buddies on tuesday.

then its back to work. :))

i love what i do.

i love what i have and what i am.

SMILE world.

2009-06-29T19:07:00.002+08:00

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

i miss my honeybunch.

11 months till i get him backk

2009-06-19T12:32:00.001+08:00

contented and happy.

2009-06-18T22:53:00.001+08:00

Hold me closer tiny dancer

Count the headlights on the highway

Lay me down in sheets of linen

You had a busy day today.

i like productivity and being organised.

2009-06-14T22:10:00.002+08:00

the thought of being with you tomorrow gives me the strength to go on today.

it may be tiring and sleep depriving, self and love sacrificing,

but i definitely love doing what i do at work.

i look forward to everyday

i love the challenges and busyness.

i miss my honeybunch.

2009-06-07T23:46:00.002+08:00

Soooo in love with the song: Angel in Disguise.

such true sweet, simple meaning.

Simple things really make me happy.

Like the boy, who bought me kinder bueno.

and was Uber sweet.

Treasure life.

Being in oncology,

Makes me realise how much i should spend time

With my loved ones when i have them.

So i wont regret anything in Life.

Love Work.

Couldnt Ask for More.

Happy Working.

Great Week.

Smile and Be the Best You Can Be.

2009-06-04T21:48:00.002+08:00

something sweet.

KISSES. :))

If I kissed you

Would fireworks fly

Woud angels sing with lollipops

Would dinosaurs cry

Would babies all gurgle in laughter and surprise

If I kissed you.

If I kissed you

What would Michaelangelo say

Would he still have sculpted David

Would we be immortalized in clay

Would the poets write of love like ours

Would John Donne have his say

If I kissed you

You could be one in a million

You could be the one for me

But l guess I'll never know if I never try

I guess I'll just have to grab you in my arms and kiss you.
If I kissed you

Would you lose track of time

Would you feel a surge of happiness

Running up your spine

Would you run naked in the streetwith a tattoo of my name on your behind

If I kissed you.

Oh, if I kissed you

Yeah, if I kissed you.

misses my belovedd

<3<3<3

2009-06-02T23:47:00.000+08:00

its you and me against the world.

smile ((:

2009-05-26T18:46:00.001+08:00

how meaningful.

Each day I live

I want to be

A day to give

The best of me

I'm only one

But not alone

My finest day

Is yet unknown

I broke my heart

For every gain

To taste the sweet

I faced the pain

I rise and fall

Yet through it all

This much remains

Chorus:

I want one moment in time

When I'm more than I thought

I could be

When all of my dreams

Are a heartbeat away

And the answers are all up to me

Give me one moment in time

Whem I'm racing with destiny

Then in that one moment in time

I will feel, I will feel eternity

I've lived to be

The very best I want it all

No time for less I've laid my plans

Now lay the chance

Here in my hands

Chorus

You're a winner

For a lifetime

If you seize that

One moment in time

Make it shine

Chorus

Then in that one moment in time

I will be,

I will be free

2009-05-25T21:19:00.002+08:00

The roots of education are bitter,

But the fruits are sweet..

Congratulations my sweet Nurses.

We've come to the end of one journey.

Cheers to all we do in the future.

keep in touch.

2009-05-24T21:14:00.002+08:00

neither the planter nor the waterer matters:

only God, who makes all things grow.

it is all one who does the planting and does the watering,

and each will duly be paid according to his share in the work

we are the fellow workers with god; you are god's farm, god's building.

so true.

:))

2009-05-18T23:22:00.000+08:00

I have found the paradox,

that if you love until it hurts,

there can be no more hurt,

only more love.

***

2009-05-17T01:11:00.002+08:00

never did we think photo shoot with families would be this fun.

i wished it never ended.

nth i could ask for more, when i have MY FAMILY.

some photos up on FB.

((:

the next in 2 months time.

us?

me?

2009-05-14T22:31:00.002+08:00

tough times.-NPL, boredom-scars

little did i know it would have turned out this way,

i'd rather work.

cold sores

swollen lymph nodes.

hope it heals.

before my long awaited saturday.

2009-05-11T13:35:00.002+08:00

no one starts a war,

or rather no one in his sense out to do so,

without first being clear in his mind what he intends

to achieve by that war and how he intends to conduct it.

i give you my heart,

i give you my soul.

i live for you alone.

cheeers to a good week ahead.

2009-05-10T00:43:00.001+08:00

the flame burns strong.

the candle's growing short.

2009-05-08T17:09:00.002+08:00

is it luck or "sway-ness"?

2 days of IC

1 pt passing on on each day.

i need to recharge.

3 days off.

all things are possible.

2009-05-05T21:34:00.002+08:00

Damaged. by Cathy Glass

An absolutely awesome read.

that left me tearing more than 3 times.

And i amazingly finished it in 4 days.

So much I need to say

Been lonely since the day

The day you went away

So sad but true

For me there's only you

Been crying since the day

The day you went away

2009-05-04T22:04:00.002+08:00

If you press me to say why I loved him,

I can say no more than because

he was he,

and I was I.

these days,

we're blinded by so many things, (work, school, extra activities...)

some of us hardly take time to realise

why we "love" our loved ones so much.

thru ups and downs,

we learn to love and give more.

wisdom,strength, perserverence, faithfulness and patience

are all that carry us through.

the road may be long and winding

but we will get there.

:))

could be better.

lost in thoughts/needs.

2009-05-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

Don't say you love me unless forever

Don't tell me you need me,

if you're not gonna stay

Don't give me this feeling,

I'll only believe it

Make it real or take it all away

xoxo.

2009-05-02T00:06:00.001+08:00

MAY DAY!

time passes so fast,

with all well.

<3.

misses the kisses lovee

2009-04-29T21:58:00.002+08:00

Your love is like a river, peaceful and deep

Your soul is like a secret that

I never could keep

When I look into your eyes

I know that it's true

God must have spent a little more time on you

back on track.

sometimes, all it takes is

that time,

the dinner,

the talks

those kisses.

one last obstacle to pull through.

iv exam.

and the final one- to take day by day

and pass the probation.

with a positive mindset,

a motivation and

a goal to attain,

the position to reach.

we will get there.

2009-04-26T23:33:00.000+08:00

A kiss is a lovely trick

designed by nature to stop speech

when words become superfluous.

good week and happy kissing! (:

2009-04-26T21:54:00.002+08:00

pay day.

shopping is indeed one of the most therapeutic destresses.

happy the man, who has a burning goal.

2009-04-20T20:58:00.001+08:00

If I cannot love ... I am nothing

I am happy for the way things are turning out to be,

every thing, every one are put in our lives for a reason.

2009-04-19T22:17:00.002+08:00

yay.

finally- i get to do my long awaited and wanted photoshoot.

sometime in may.

i feel like changing my blogging style from today.

i think it should have more substance.

I may be able to speak the languages of human beings and even of angels, but if I have no love, my speech is no more than a noisy gong or a clanging bell. I may have the gift of inspired preaching; I may have all knowledge and understand all secrets; I may have the faith needed to move mountains-but if I have no love, I am nothing. I may give away everything I have, and even give up my body to be burned-but if I have no love, this does me no good."

1 Corinthians, 13:1-13

Have A blessed, fruitful and good week, ALL.

loves

2009-04-18T11:57:00.004+08:00

foundation's over,

the real things beginging.

the mood's setting in.

i hope all stays this goood.

someone smart, help me with IV exam.

NURUL HUDA! thanks for being so sweet and watching over me so ever closely, even over here.

Great weekend all!

2009-04-16T20:21:00.002+08:00

tmr is the end of foundation.

how fast.

this is it.

im rather happy with things.

met my lovee today after work,

slept for a bit,

ate,

watched tv and hung out.

beeen long man.

i love my duty boyy

2009-04-15T21:55:00.002+08:00

working has been fun.

with the staff and nicole, sarah and karen.

and some patients are really nice.

tho some can be damn F.

ive encountered sweet things, from staff and patients.

got my whole wrking roster for the next month.

liking it alot.

many long breaks for me.

happy working!

2009-04-14T21:12:00.002+08:00

busy busy busy

studying for iv

tired.

losing weight.

working.

but i'm liking this life.

its been rewarding and motivating so far.

cheers guys,

keep ur heads up high. we'll get there sooon.

miss my babes.

2009-04-10T20:43:00.000+08:00

hohoho.

got my first pay.

tired.

holy week.

work.

im too tired and lazy to update this thing.

happy easter yal.

2009-04-06T19:58:00.001+08:00

sick,

weak,

tired.

go away now,

come again another day.

i miss my bbabybunchhh

2009-04-02T18:40:00.003+08:00

im trying to stay postive and recap on stuff i have to.

its a lot.

too much to learn and grasp too soon esp after 2 months of holidaying and nth to do with nursing.

as of today

we'll be mostly at the ward

but its still foundation for us.

we officially end on the 18th.

LUCKY

2009-04-01T22:28:00.002+08:00

for now,

things look good.

except for the studying part.

there's so much to learn and know- chemo and evrything else.

staff and siisters

are fine.

i pray and hope it goes fine.

2009-03-31T19:03:00.002+08:00

here,

48 it is.

im happy and sad.

dont ask why.

still shocked and absorbing and learning i have to do this,

on my own.

i juts pray and hope this was all part of his plan,

and if it is,

i hope god guides me and helps me learn and adapt.

2009-03-30T18:07:00.002+08:00

orrdered pizza yesterday for/with the boy before book in

followed to send him back to camp after eons.

slept as early as 1030 pm

still feeling tired.

i have the psp.

since our ex link card expires tmr, my daddy bought me one today and topped it up.

meeting nadddles at kovan later to return my "the wedding" and get my next book.

this one was nice and sweet.

:))

tired but happy.

2009-03-29T13:16:00.002+08:00

sleepy is the perfect word that describes me now.

busy later. with the boy and what not.

had a such a nice sweeet time yesterday with my baby bunch.

.dinner for our 2 yrs at brewerkz

.much talking we havent done in some time.

.photos

.watch bungee thing at CQ

.watch people fly their toys in the open space at CQ- which was so nice when co ordinated.

walking and walking

.my love got me a gold hp strap engraved my name on it.

walked talked walked whyned walked.

to the cathay to catch a movie arnd 1ish

bumped into vanisha :)

thanks for the movie babe.

reach home arnd 4 am

slept barely 2 hrs

church

clean the house.

now- sleeep.

bye. :)

lots to look forward to at work this week.

plus phototaking.

2009-03-28T13:52:00.002+08:00

i have such a great feeling of contentment.

i've nothing to say.

i love the feeling of being so loved, loving, satisfied, happy.

its like i open a present everyday

feeling like this.

love story. <3

2009-03-27T22:54:00.001+08:00

what a week,

finally something to look forward to everyday.

work.

4 hours tmr.

then its my time with my boy.

out and dinner to celebrate our anniversary.

happy and blesses weeekend.

enjoy

2009-03-25T22:04:00.002+08:00

AWW.

how 2 years flew by with the wind.

its our 2nd anniversary.

glad we've made it this far.

enjoying everyday for now.

loving for the ones i love so dearly.

living according to his will.

my family of 5 plus granny

and MAYBE a few certain others

ought to be called and loved as family

as for the rest. fcuk off.

the some others aren't fit even to be called family. bastards.

every bloody dog has its day.

i hope your children put YOU in the old folks home.

2009-03-23T19:17:00.003+08:00

all good things come to an end.

no more holidays

time to work hard.

today officically marks the start of working life

and officially being a STAFF NURSE.

good and bad.

bad- responsibilities, having to know everything, being more independent......

good- a goood time to start with something new from 3 years of hard work.

the feeeling was different.

wearing a SN uniform and name tag.

just so different from what it used to be.

im happy,

i have something more useful to do everyday

i earn my own money

i can live off myself.

i can give back to my parents. for all they've done.

....

changes are hard to adapt.

for one month or so,

we'll be on foundation programme with occassional times of being in clinical practice.

esp saturday.

well only 8-12.

for now,

its sitting in patho lab and listening to long long stories and lectures.

these shoes feeel too big for me.

:))

be happy, smile.

2009-03-12T12:06:00.004+08:00

leaving today peeeps

be back on the 20th morning

and willbe absolutely busy running around sgh and bt merah getting ym stuff done.

results on the 17th. watch out guys.

hopefully i get to go online there.

I"VE BEEEN MISSING MY DEAREST BOY,

not being able to see him for 2 weeeks.

this sure sucks.

not really talking for 1 week.

i was being all tioo sad and teary while talking to him last night.

cause i cant talk to him today- he's got water training and yadadaddad.

whyyyy am i soooo lucky all the time.

anywayyyy

i beeen having a gooood weeek.

meeting all my babes, doing what we did.

meeting my naddles whooo's just sooo busy

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU ALL.

stay happy.

smile and pray.

till then,

bye.

2009-03-09T12:18:00.004+08:00

unglam loveee

i got what was promised.

im happy, but feeeling it now already.

whats more by the end of 2 weeks.

i'm gonna miss my babybunch.

i cant really talk to him while im there. maybe a few times.

cant see him for 2 weeks yet again.

nonetheless i had a fun filled weekend.

going for lunch in town on sat and slacking,

the birthdays

and slacking again with johnny

sunday with the family,

changi village

met him later

going out with his family

with something that happned and freaked me out the most.

meeting nurul to slack and for dinner and some catching up.

im so touched by this one's thoughts def.

she still remembers me and asked me out after prcp.

i want to see

2009-03-07T00:43:00.002+08:00

exactly 5 days more.

i pretty excited.

i hope nth screws up.

nonetheless i've spoken my feeelings.

i feel at ease.

im trying not to keep my head and hopes up too high.

I'M A HAPPY GIRL

this is my motivation.

heres the busy weeekend,

i love being busy.

my long awaited date with my boyfriend.

cass birthday

mels birthdaty

sunday

church the whole morning as usual

both the granny's

one to pack.

meeet the lovee hopefully.eh comes over.

monday

hopefully meet kas and have our hundreth time post poned meeting

meet nurul for dinner and slacking.

feeels like soo much of love and life.

i love it.

keeep me near you crosss.

2009-03-05T16:21:00.000+08:00

7 days more

im excited.

im excited for the weekend.

2009-03-04T11:36:00.005+08:00

collected uniforms today, well only 2.

so i got 1 blouse and pants

and 1 dress

1 more set of uniforms once we start work and they have more stock

and along with all these, i bought a cream coloured cardigan for work.

from zara since it was rather nice and cheap too.

2 nurse's wedge shoes- that

i dont intend to use yet.

cause i'd rather my sexy crocs

they should give us at least 4 uniforms

altogether considering our working days

tskk!

i reallly like the uniform

cause it finally says

im a staff nurse after 3 years

i feeel such a great sense of satisfaction seeing and wearing the uniform.

for how i never thought i'd be a nurse

for how i thought i'd take for then 3 years to finish this.

for what i am now.

all that is left

is to recieve the letter for conferment

transcript

SNB cert.

all once im back

im reallly happy

later to kkh for her appt.

lunch at tekka

ntuc shopping for india

i cant believe all this is happening.

neither can i believe i am a nurse.

2009-03-03T17:21:00.002+08:00

i loved my indian vegetarian lunch today.

collection of uniforms tomorrow, after ten thousand years.

so i finally see my reks again!

2009-03-01T23:27:00.002+08:00

soo

im pissed abt something that has become too common.

but i like the way it is,

you think you've given up,

but the other doesnt want to give it up,

and wants change.

so i'll see.

if the decision makes me happy.

its like i got u wrapped around my fingers.

after the whole series of events that have happened

over just this weekend.

I officially say

ALCOHOL

is the root to all evil.

2009-02-28T18:05:00.002+08:00

last night with the girls

nicce fun time we had.

lancing lancing. :))

today-

i finally have a nice, simple,

digi cam to myself.

samsung.

after trading in the old olympus no one uses.

gooood weeeeekend all.

mel- happy starting work, nth to feeel bad abt, we're starting in no time.

enjoy and look forward to it, itll all sure go well.

queeen- happpy taiwaninggg

melllo- happy 21st. vcant wait for saturday dinnerr and partttteh

2009-02-26T18:59:00.001+08:00

naddles meeting

gym cause it rained

PSP.

swimming tmr.

2009-02-25T22:27:00.006+08:00

us 23 mths ago

us now.

today being the 26 marks

23 months of being together.

now that we celebrate and count in years

this is just

thoughts of love.

time has gone by so fast

so many things happened

just as much changes

ups

downs

most importantly,

the trust we built

the understanding we share

the love that grows each day.

1-2-1-2-3-4

Give me more loving than

I’ve ever had

Make me feel better when

I’m feeling sad

Tell me I’m special even though

I know I’m not

Make me feel good when

I hurt so bad

Barely getting mad

I’m so glad I found you

I love being around you

You make it easy

Its as easy as

1-2-1-2-3-4

There’s only one thing

To Do

Three words

For you

(I love you)

I love you

There’s only one way to say

Those three words

That’s what I’ll do

(I love you)

I love you

Give me more loving from the very start

Piece me back together when I fall apart

Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when

I hurt so bad

You’re the best that I’ve had

And I’m so glad I found you

I love being around you

You make it easy

It’s easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4

There’s only one thing

To Do

Three words

For you

(I love you)

I love you

There’s only one way to say

Those three words

That’s what I’ll do

(I love you)

I love you

(I love you)

I love you

You make it easy

It’s easy as 1 2 1 2 3 4

There’s only one thing

To Do

Three words

For you

(I love you)

I love you

There’s only one way

to say

Those three words

That’s what I’ll do

(I love you)

I love you

(I love you)

I love you

1-2-3-4

I love you

(I love you)

I love you

2009-02-25T15:41:00.002+08:00

i jogged yesterday.

I swam 40 laps today

hopefully jogging tmr again

hopefully i can lose as much as i want before the 12.

and maintain it .

tmr,

23 months of being with my beloved Soldier.

lets soldier on, boy.

collecting the visa-s today.

today

no meat

ashes on the forehead,

the start of lent.

2009-02-23T23:31:00.000+08:00

im so glad,

its confirmed.

I have a Holiday.

To India.

2009-02-23T17:46:00.002+08:00

the choir.

from the gathering we had yesterday

and at home,

we had a gathering for Dad's 48 th birthday

which is on tuesday.

New camera before India

hopefully The Digital Ixus 980

since there is trade in offer.

i finally bought the top i've been wanting

and a few more too.

2009-02-23T14:25:00.001+08:00

YAY

i might be gg to India for a holiday.

going to book today or tmr.

hopefully, all is good.

march 12 to ?19.

YAY.

super happy.

something to look forward to.

2009-02-20T21:28:00.002+08:00

soo

i finally swam, for this week.

once.

at least.

30laps

met mel there. and im sure she really lves and has soo much to say abt mr sun.

then we left and she drove me home.

thanks babe!!

so movie tonight?

i dont know.

tmr.

breakfast with my family lovess

and then hopefully to PS.

maybe to buy the dresses

and def to have YAMI yougurt.

hrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

sweeets for my SWEET

2009-02-19T22:19:00.002+08:00

Thanks for never failing-

to entertain me, make me laugh, put a smile to my face, feed me till I'm content,

share with me all you have, buying me my wants,

arguing with me, making me cry and most of all be with me.

I'm enjoying every moment i have with you now.

And I'm proud of what we are.

When tears never fall, and birds never fly

Winter never ends, and children never cry

When the sun never shines, and the moon never glows

When darkness is too bright, and the river never flows

When the nights are not dark, and the days are not light

When forever does finally end, and the eyes have no sight

When confusion is so clear, and voices can't be heard

The sunset never fades, and no one says a word

When ears cannot hear, and the grass never grows

When silence is too loud, and the genius never knows

When strength doesn't strengthen, and flowers never bloom

When hearts can't be broken, and eternity is too soon

When everything means nothing, and real just isn't real

When God rests a little while, and death never kills

When the wind never blows, and the rain is never wet

When thunder can't be heard, and the sun refuses to set

When a dreamer cannot dream, and the obvious can't be found

When the ocean is not deep, and the earth is not round

When angels don't protect, and a fact is not true

When life can't be lived, and the sky is not blue

When the truth is a lie, and the fake becomes so real

The clock shows no time, and wounds never heal

When enjoyment isn't fun, and bells cannot ring

When a race cannot be won, and a singer cannot sing

When pain does not hurt, and enemies never fight

When rainbows have no color, and something wrong seems so right

When all these things finally happen, when they finally come true

That's when without a doubt i will stop loving you

2009-02-19T22:10:00.002+08:00

the more im bored and aimless,

the more foood goes into my mouth.

i didnt go anwhere today.

thats the worst.

im looking forward to my tmr,

i can finally swim again.

and lose weight

for the one week of no exercise.

and when the boy books out,

maybe a stayover or just out till lateee.

i have painted nails.

and for once,

they look pretty.- considering i did them on my own.

and i like it.

i might buy more colours, since its cheap and nice.

i finally got rid of my lecture notes.

all of them.

my shelves are cleaner and emptier.

maybe do some shifting and clearing,

get wall fans

change the look of my room a little.

2009-02-18T16:10:00.001+08:00

boredom kills.

i neeed things to do.

cause i can't sleep without you baby.

nothing can replace you.

2009-02-17T22:59:00.002+08:00

went to town with naddles.

checked out the dress i wanted. it cost 50 bucks.

pretty nice.

so seee how.

beach with the babes yesterday.

nice chill out we had.

spent some time at church today for holy hour.

2009-02-15T20:16:00.003+08:00

spending time+ dinner the whole day.

was my v day.

we're not the typical kinds for big bouquets, high expectations, bears, sweets and goodies.

i had iit sweet and simple.

and today we watched

the curious case of benjamin button

pretty sad ending.

nice.

and super long long movie.

im home and not sending my sweeetlove to camp,

cause i'd be nice to be with the family tonight.

i'll prb get to seee my love during the week.

and he finally buys the psp.

so. im contented with my weeekend.

sentosa with the nyp babes tmr.

cam whoring, tanning for the fairer ones, and shading for the not so fair ones.

talking and catching up.

not much bitching.

goood weeek ahead i hope,

event fille week and many many things to look forward to

transcript.

apply for SNB

perhaps swimming on friday.

exercise through the week.

hopefully, the slumdog millionaire this weekend.

choir social/gathering on sunday.

great week lovess

2009-02-13T23:19:00.002+08:00

30 laps. today

i sooo annoyed as to how some ppl are so freaking greedy.

everything is full.

everything is high.

i only pray u learn sometime soon before its way too late.

your greed--> your health--> your life--> your suffering.

so sad. but i give up.

happy valentine's day fellow loveees

2009-02-12T22:16:00.002+08:00

i swam.

yay.

on tueday -16 laps.

today- 28 laps.

:))

i like it.

i hope i can lose weight.

cause itss shaded, clean, new and rather empty.

and i bought new goggles before swimmign today. they're pretty with baby pink thin straps.

matching my swimming costume.

bothe black and pink. :))

and since i finished the barley i made,

i made orange juice from all the 50+ let over oranges from cny.

i hope something happens to stop me from eatingg.

tt boy, only wants to talk to me when he ORDs.

but we'll see if he can liev with it.

muahahaha.

<3

2009-02-11T22:51:00.006+08:00

:)) mine.

hearts all overt the world.

so heartily.

my dear love doesnt have to go to brunei on the 13th.

both good and bad.

but all still as good.

i dont think we need to celebrate v-day,

cause for us, its almost every other day.

just one of those days.

finally not being on mc, no family gatherings,

means.. time with the boy :))

better times these days,

smiles and happier souls.

i watched the notebook last night.

another touching and moving one.

so im on to the wedding which is linked to the notebook.

after this.

the guardian, perhaps?

imisssmyhoneybunch.

stay strong and healthy.

cant wait for our funfilled weekend of movies and love.

messages

2009-02-11T00:12:00.002+08:00

and so ive finally finished reading

Message in a Bottle.

the story is sweet.

the ending was sad.

...

we should cherish the love we have,

say what we need to,

do what we want to.

give and take.

listen and understand.

all things happen for reasons,

so we should never look back and regret.

2009-02-10T00:06:00.002+08:00

beginning to feeel sick.

headache, sore throat, blocked nose, flu-y.

i slept till 2ish,

woke up, boiled barley

cooked dinner for the family.

brought some over for the boy

which he finally thinks isnt poison anymore.

too bad on missing previous ones.

but nonetheless,

the sweetest thing i heard today,

don't worry they love you so much

but i love you even more.

2009-02-09T14:28:00.002+08:00

busybussy weekend.

fri- a and e with the boy

sat- my impulsive swimming.

meet the boy

night- benji's 21st

sun- church

visit granny

compass

met the boy and a and e again. till 1 plus.

cant wait to finish reading my msg in a bottle.

almost done.

its really nice n sweet.

2009-02-05T23:48:00.002+08:00

another of those UNproductive days.

i really wished i had a job, just to occupy my time.

the money doesnt even matter.

waking up late, disturbing naddles are part of the routine.

for a change, i felt the need to jog since we beeen eating endlessly.

jogged at 12noooon. at the park.

slacked at home.

read. stilling reading- msg in a bottle.

howw sweeeet.

met naddles, for a little india escapade.

got home pretty early, in time to catch Life Watch.

this what we nurses do.

and readd.

cant wait to start on the wedding.