Monday, September 29, 2008
dang dang
starts from friday night.
i was a good girl
stayed home, even slept early,
saturday
woke up.
helped around the house.
still being pretty nice.
after church, met johny and went to pantat's birthday. at baracuda. a pub
i heard the f1 cars; they were a major steam la. plus watching it on the screen
it couldn't have been better. with the music and the company.
sooo,
mel was waiting for me, didnt wanna be the only girl around his friends.
she'd been drinking. haha. she got me shots after shots after shots.
ended up. drunk. majorr drunk la. i had like at least 12 shots.and a few drinks
i had to leave as ealry as 1 am.
my parents happened to come back around then, saw me from the cab,
they were sooo pissed to me sooo drunk.
lectured. the next day.
felt like crap la. from alchohol and myself.
soo ya
I vow never to get as pissed drunk as i was.
today
operation day, to remove my lump on my back.
woke up darn early,
took a train to the hosp.
then they got me ready and walked me into the OT.
i was damnnnn fking scared la.
sooo this nurse, was superr nice. she talked to me and reasssured me and all.
i lied on the operating table - they hooked me up to numerous machines and monitors.
i juts lied there for a good 15 mins alone.
damn scared. i started to tear,
then the sweet nurse came around and tried to talk to me then she wiped my tears off.
finally the doctor arrives and looks through all the mri scans and info.
then he says " ok just to inform u, u can still op out of this because its benign and
there's a very high chance of it growing out again even if i removed it now. so do u want to remove it..?
then i was like " ermm.. ya i guess" soo they made me lie on my left lateral throughout..
sooo they checked me like 101 times. my name, ic no, what op it was,
then he cleaned and cleaned my back.
slowly, he injected me like i think 10 times alll over my back.
damn pain la. soo me being a crybaby- started to go ouch. pain pain pain.and tears rolling down.
then they were like sorry ah sorry.
finally my back is numb. he asks me " can u feel ur back numb?"
then he goes on to cut my back and i felt it, so i cried but to myself la.
actually i was soo scared throughout - i kept tearing and crying to myself.
then i felt major pain. he cut me where he didnt numb soo i was like ahhh pain!
then the doctor just did everything la.
it got more pain when he went deeper into my back. but he told me it would be more pain.
so i expected la.
finally done, at 10.05 am. wheeled me out to the resting place. damn hard to change, and cant bend my back now. for now.
i cant sleep on my usual right. it sucks.
on pain killers.
my back hurts.
cant sit properly.
i need a dressing everyday or every other day.
my dearest MISSSIES! come do for me k.
hahah off to rest.
omg i miss my dearest boy la. i really would love to have him by my side now.
I MISS U, come see me on tuesday night , love.
