MC for 2 days and 1 day off is over..
enough resting and all that.
back to work.
been really boring the last few days other than meeting the MC king..
yay work work work.
night shift next thursday friday and saturday
and soon i'll be on leave..
and 20 days more til my birthdayy..!
how exciting..
losing weight wasnt that much of an easy task,
maintaining it is much harder..
i'm not getting fatter.
FEEEEL like shopping and getting out.
SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP.
asss
MC
MC for 2 days after much thought and procrastination..
feeel bad to take the MC but i needed it.
sick and as well as a break.
im really tired out.
the goood news is,
yes i have my sweetheart till the 17 of Nov.
extention of MC for him..
happiness..
BIRTHDAY
invitations are out,
ordering the food and cake tmr.
deco- still onsidering, maybe i'd get the girls to do it with me the night before..
music- ooh well, i have to start compiling CDs, from dad and myself to play.
no big Dj and all,
Photos- hopefully help from tim and our own cameras.
my prettty dress, i cant wait to wear it.
fucking gorgeous and sexy i swear.
till date there is 22 days left.
still finding it hard to adapt to the fact that im turning 21.
kid no more.
LIFE
I've been a happier person these days,
i think the a__y is the damn thing that ruins my days.
work is well and fine.
depressing but coping,
its all good when u look forward to it.. when u have nie friends and people to work with and have fun and face th challenges with.
i brought the family out for lunch quite randomly AND brought them to catch my sister's keeper
yes i watched it twice this weekend. but that wasn't enough.
even my kid sister teared. and said she wanted to cherish and stop fighting with me cause
tts our daily routine lately.
not to mention my mother only stopped crying at certain parts of the movie.
my brother said its a emo movie that got him thinking more.
my dad said it was a good movie and confirmants should watch this kinda movies.
it was all in all a good sunday.
that i ended with pow seng's tofu and grocery shopping with mum.
i feel like a tourist in the fmily. cause i dont get to be with them on most weekends.
LOVE.
the boy has been good.
changed.
i'm hoping its permanant.
i know no one's perfect.
im not expecting him to be.
but he's better off now then he was 31 months ago.
with choices and decisions he has made.
the life he has been through.
sweet and everything nice.
occassional hiccups here and there which can be overlooked cause of the good times and things.
im realy proud of this one.
i was singing : the best i ever had my drake to someone. though it wasnt to the right person.
but this is one really nice meaningful song.
current fav.
HappyDeepavali fellow friends.
Birthday
my birthday is in less then a month.
i'm feeeling the hype and excitement.
i know its not gonna be the same but i'm not gonna let that dampen my spirits
cause its my 21st.
the one and only day you wait for so patiently for 364 days, so
im completely elated.
parts are fitting in one by one.
invites are more or less done and waiting to be sent/given out.
i bought my dress. awesome buy despite the prize.
my baby said it looks really sexy and gorgeous.
Cancer
i lost 3 patients in just a span of 2 days
the nicer patients.
the first time i actually felt my heart drop and teared.
Its hard for us, its harder for their loved ones.
my sister's keeper- i finally realised its showing and i caught it the same day
with the girls and had supper with them. its been a while anyway.
nice night out.
cancer is somehow making me realise alot more things in life.
its making me a lil worried and fearful.
i pray each and everyday for the health of the people around me.
i may be biased but im really nice to this one patient.
but she deserves my nice-ness.
Nails
long
nice
pedi-ed
mani-ed
REDD.
=
HAPPINESS
LOVE
we've been having it good with the dear boy on MC
i hope it stays this way post MC
me being less grumpy,
more understanding, deep breathing had come a long way.
we've plans
for the next year,
for a few years in fact.
hope it all goes well
more importantly according to god's plan..
FAMILY
some sad things happend oveer the weeek.
un expected and shocking.
i guess people make mistakes and learn from them.
hope the rest goes well from there...
they love, help, support, motivate and understand like no one else.
LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE
so, he was a lil upset when i told him but it subsided.
it wasnt abt the thing itself but instead not telling him.
now i know it wouldnt upset him so i can just tell him if im taking it.
my bday is only a month away,
place is settled,
foood is more of less settled
cake settled
the worry is the invitation card, the unfinished guest list,
rsvp, deco, photographer, more chairs, music.
have decided to call the girls and perhaps the papa-son and emily too.
meeting the boy almost everyday and making the best of his MC.
it feeels so good to be able to see him and spend time with him like this.
i only could wish this never ends.
but it would when MC ends.
all the best boyy.
so with all the complains and whyning, i guess the improvement
is not as negligible.
right now
my focus is on,
working
saving for school next yr and ausssie in nov next yr.
our cruise/ mini holidayy with the boy after ORD.
being happy
fighting less
maintaining and perhaps losing a bt more if people dont kill me,
preparing and having a blessed and meaningful christmas this year with my family and loved ones.
plan for the new year.
love love peoople.
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its finally come to an end.
now whats sad is,
i'm gonna miss the girls and cracking our heads over dresses,
practices, steps and yadada.
we wont see each other as much..
the good thing is,
we finally get more time to ourselves and do not have to do as many morning shifts
we do not have to see certain people.
it'll be a new journey from here for everyone of us based on what we learned and bring back with us to grace us through life,
to me,
the catwalk, walking like a lady should.
speaking, unlike a true blue singaporean.
upholding our profession and living a good and healthy life.
we have more opportunities to go for course with our papa-son Gary
who will def be missed by us. esp me having to be contestant no.1 and catwalking hand in hand with him and him dreaming of us at night.
winning the consolation to me meant,
the pay off of all our hard work and efforts and best of all the priceless and more meaningful thing this pagent has made us learn.
i am glad i made it this far although i personally never wanted to be part of it and went for auditions so half heartedly
i knew weihsin the sweeet one would win, but not sure what.
dina, i knew would be romantic, with that elegant walk and sweet face and voice.
cheryl 1st runner up really did her best and pulled through well, being very sweet and humble through it all.
nisa- who danced and cat walked soooo damn well.
keeep it up girls.
meet soon.
mani, pedi-s, fish spa, starbucks breakfasts..
well enjoyed and something i would remember all my life.
photos all on FB. videos will be uploaded soon.
all in all, im glad i made my parents proud of me from my Q and A.
and my sweeetheart to be at the dinner and dance, videoing tKING photos
even with the shoulder in such pain and agony,
i love u all my loves.
no more endless morning shifts.
if you were mine,
everytime,
you could be the one to make me feel alright
day or night.
i am sleep deprived.
i am anxious plus plus for friday.
i hope all goes fine, and we remember our stuff and everyone has fun
diet diet diet
thank god my face it better,.
flatten a bit more.
lose it a bit more.
craze lesss.
stilll SOB-ing.
giddiness is less.
with all i have i give to you the one i live for.
i hope this rainbow shines forever.
and out of the blue i got the sweetest words from him ever.
not i love and and all the usuals.
but im keeping it from here.
it kept my heart jumping for quite a well.
i miss the boy who i did dressing on the shoulder for.
giddy spells and SOB++ for the last two days have been keeping me home and in bed.
i need to get well.
on the other hand i want to watch FAME,
phobia 2 and a few other movies.
can't wait for this friday.
the day.
communication i realised is so important,
i think we all lack it.
esp with computers and handphones as distractions,
poeple communicate less physically and verbally.
we had a reallly lonng and sub normal conversation yesterday
im glad i know where we're going wrong and im glad to see changes.
i guess thingsa hve changed becasue of our work and life schedules.
there has to be more give and take,
more and more.
prioritise.
mark is gone.
i hope he'll be safe.
and protected.
can't wait for him to be back
def gonna miss him.
dear lord,
i pray for health and safety for all the ones so dear and close to me.
i pray for those who walked the wrong path
that they be guided back to you and your liight.
give us strength to face each new day
the courage to face the trials and temptations,
the love we need to brighten the ones low and down around us.
help me be like you.
thank you for all the people and things u've placed in my life
both good and bad.
amen.
its good and its bad,
so many things.
4 nights done,
4 days off.
the big thing is next week,
its too soon.
people leaving, people suffering, peoplee dying,
keeping up with everyone else,
pleasing everyone,
meeeting and maintaing expectations,
changes, changes changes.
Be Positive.
Be Happy.
these try to keep me going.
i need to set freee many things in my head,
and let lose, the correct and meaningful way.
one more month to my birthday
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